Not My Strength

I think one of the verses in the Bible I fall back on the most is in Philippians. Chapter 4. verse 13.

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I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me.

I consider myself a weak person. Stubborn? Oh, yes. Responsible? Yeah, I think so... Dependable? uh huh, I'm pretty dependable, at least I think I am! Do I think I can do all things? Nope. I don't think I can do all things. I know that this is a reliable, secured fact. One of the areas I am weak is: I get scared and afraid of regular people. Yes. Most the time, I would rather be the fly on the wall. I don't like the spotlight nor large crowds. Crowds give me the jitters. I don't always feel up to social gatherings and I would rather chew my finger off then call someone I don't know. I have problems with confronting people verbally. I'm afraid I will be left standing there with the losing end of the debate.

There are a lot of places in my heart that the muscles just aren't worked on a regular basis. Those muscles hurt bad when I do use them. But, regardless of what I was or wasn't gifted to do, there are so many things I need to do and have to do regularly or annually, or... whenever the Holy Spirit prompts me to DO IT. The times when I think I just can't go on. The moments I just wish I weren't involved with. The uncomfortable feeling that I come to know when I'm doing things that aren't a natural way for me. Those things that I'm just sure, I cannot do. It's Christ's power in me that overrides my weak system. It's the Holy Spirit who opens my mouth to say what I should say, what I can not say on my own.

It's His strength that moves my fingers that are being called to action. When I feel weak, I have to ask him to step in and take things over. Because my humanness has trouble letting go of control consistently. I have to hand over the assignment I feel I can't handle. I have to give him my passcode and allow him inside to give me the updates I have to have in order to achieve what I'm being asked to do. Letting The Spirit infiltrate my soul, I have to start my day giving him the reigns to drive it. (The Lord knows, I get us lost if I don't). I can Everyday, (when I ask) do all things through Christ, who gives me the strength to do it. I know for certain it isn't mine.

~Prudence